Cycle..

Past is what I cherish cause it has made me what I am today..
Present is what I love cause it will give me beautiful memories..
Future is what I wait for cause it is gonna give me surprises..

Things what I love is what I cherish and wait for more.. So it is indeed a beautiful cycle..

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I dont know why am blogging today nor do I know why am feeling so stressed out. Probably at the end of this post I will understand my position better.

I was travelling to my friends place yesterday. There were two other women sitting opposite to me. Now, that I am travelling alone and I dont have anything to do (how long will I click snaps!!), I was now and then looking at these two women. They were foriegners and were countinously chatting in they language. I hardly could understand the language but I was able to make out what they were talking from their expressions. One was worried and talking about a third person and other was consoling. Seeing this I entered my own world of thoughts. Why do human beings speak? To express them. Now, what do human beings speak? I was thinking and thinking and all I could conclude was people speak about 'others' most of the time! Yes! I am not talking about men and women seperately cause I know that Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. ;-P. Most of the time people talk about their friends, cousins, relatives, colleagues, people who have hurt them, who haven't hurt them.. blah blah. Well, when I discussed this topic with my hubby, he refused to agree this.. so please note I said 'Most of the time' and not 'Always'.

Now how can this stress out one? I think am thinking too much these days. Thinking about 'Others'. On what they think, on how not to hurt other, on how to keep others happy, and so on. Well, I should definitely change myself. After all, worrying about one and thinking about what they will feel, should be an agenda in our life but not a checklist.

That's it for now.

oh! u cud have got a better one!

There isn't even one person in this world who hasn't got 'oh! u cud have got a better one!'. You can hear this from most of the people around you.

'oh you should have told me..'
'I would have told u something better'
'oh this is just ok'
'oh! u cud have got a better one!'

Be it your college admission, job, dress, shoe, sock, nuts or whatever!! There is always a negative answer to be told. Next time you are told one, tell them you are in love with what you have!!!

My blog is turning out to be a place where I vent out my displeasure.. awww.. I should change myself.. or shouldn't I?

Thoughts on Weekdays.

Monday – oh no! Damm Monday!

Tuesday – Realize about deadlines and decide to concentrate on work.

Wednesday – Just planned and got into serious work.

Thursday – Think about Friday.

Friday – Hurrah! it’s Friday! Time to party!

Silence...

Silence.. This is the most powerful emotion.. I go silent at every other happening. And the silence in me hangs about if the happening hurts me like hell! Lot of people have told me that I am a 'silent killer' cause I don’t let go my emotions.. Only way I let go my emotion is by 'staying quite'.

I was just thinking about the moments I become silentand go into my own world.. have listed few moments when I become silent and what I luv to do ;-)

`` When traveling to some city and I need to part my parents, I go into my own world after I bid them good-bye. The moment I step out of our house, I start to think of how my parents brought me up and everything on those lines!

`` When my mom scolds me for what-so-ever reason!

`` When I find people around me speaking nonsense and feel there are better things to do!

`` When I find the topic under discussion very interesting I go into my own world thinking about my views about the topic.

`` When traveling by bus, I just go silent and love to listen and watch ppl around me. This is not eavesdropping! Its fun!

`` When I feel that the silence will give ‘more’ clear answers to the person am with.

`` When am in philosophical mood.

`` When I see or hear something which I never wanted to know about!

`` When traveling on road, I just watch the diversion on roads and keep looking at different vehicle numbers!

`` When traveling by rail I shut my co-passenger, I watch the far end of the train turn! Fun!

`` When my neighbors, complain about our co-neighbors!

`` When I am just out of my bed, those moments - when I just lie with my eyes open – I just luv them and the silence in my mind!

`` The moments just before sleep - when I stay awake for what-so-ever reason and think what ever comes to my mind!

`` When I am really happy or sad – cause to control my tears I need to be silent!

`` When I ppl hold me responsible for all rotten things I have never done!

`` When I know that if I open my mouth I will hurt the person I love the most.

To sum up, at least 5 min for each day I am silent. I listen to my mind and soul.. Listen to their complaints… I love to be silent. And mind you, that doesn’t mean that am an introvert.

This is no tagging.. Nobody has tagged me to write this. If you tend to become silent on any incidents - share!

Babies Babies Babies... This is the only talk around me for past one month! That's cause my sissy delivered a beautiful baby gal last Friday - 6th July!

It's gonna be one of the most unforgettable days of our life. That’s the first time I saw a lady drive in for labour; and that’s the first time I picked up a few hours old new born! I was really scared to hold the newborn, but now handle her with ease!!!

From the time of her birth we have been having lots of people visiting us to see the new mom and our bundle of joy.

I always used to thing of a solid reason on - why a baby sleeps during the day and is awake most of the night - We call it US timing - I never got any reason to this.

This weekend we had a visitor – a Pediatrician. During our conversion he was giving us few medical gyan (not about operations but about child psychology). When I asked him about US timing which new born adopt, he gave me a beautiful explanation.

When the baby is in mom's womb for 9 months, the baby sleeps during the day and wakes during nights. This is cause during the day when mommy walks, babies feels the moment as a swing and falls asleep. Later during the night when mommy sleeps during nights, baby finds it silent and stays awake. After the babies birth, this practice of the baby (sleep during day) continues and it would take about 2 months for the baby to change the habit.

Now that’s y we find most of the little one’s sleeping during the day! This was really a new to me!

Bottle of Peace Please

Sometimes blogging is such a stress-buster. Offlate am too busy that I hardly get time to think – this is no exaggeration. I did not have the time n patience to think about a topic for my blog! So I just thought to write that I dint know what to write. Now that’s confusing. Isn’t it? So I will be back with a proper post very soon, my dear soul! Until then plz bear with this one! lol. yaenakae thaeriyum idhu konajm over nu. lol

When i dont get time to think, i tend to slow down in my activities and will not b at peace. I will return to normal only when all my work is done. I guess that's the case with ever soul. So right now am trying to figure out how to get all the work done so that i can b the normal me! I normally do this by writting down all the pending works and prioritizing the same. Most of the times this doesnt work out cause each work which i have to complete would be connected to someother individual too. So i need to c to it that he/she is available too!

Any other suggestions to handle such situations?

Now Now this is not only about the official work; it is about the personal life too.

Games??? Am In!

I had listed to write on 'Games' in one of my last posts.. so here is my promise..

How many of us likes to play games?? all??

Well, avoiding the normal chatter let me get to the happening. It was a normal day at office. Ppl were busy acting as though they were working ;-). I had to leave for home early cause I had to attend some party which I was least interested in! I was ordered to get back home by 5.30 sharp. So being a v good gal I planned to close work at 4 so that I would reach home v early.

It so happened that there were some programmes organized in our office campus by a famous radio channel. When we got the news I was least interested cause I had to somehow get out of office on time. The tarzan of our cubicle (we were 4 gals in the cubile) was v interested these games. And the three of us shooed her away hehe.

When I was done for the day I shut down my comp and bit bye-bye to my teammies. Tarzan and our third friend wanted a break and decided to accompany me to ground floor. When we reached the gnd floor we found a crowd gathered. Out of curiosity, we moved to see what was happening. Oh man! there were these cute games organized. bow n arrow, throwing a ring over things, and shooting arrows to the center of a board (dont blame me I dont knwo the exact name of this game!.

Tarzan and I were tempted to play these games! It was already 4.30 but I dint care. The other friend who had accompanied us warned us not to play cause it was just for kids heheh. Who cared!!! it was fun. And the best part was I won in the last shot!! And there was a victorious clap and I was directed to a ground to get the prize!! I walked with pride; -). Paavam Tarzan was the one who wanted to win the game hehe. She looked like a soldier who had lost battle heheh. So coming back to the story I went to collect the prize. And can u guess the prize? Sob Sob. It was a pen. Waaahhhh. I turned to look at my beautiful two colleagues who were giggling from behind. And the distributor who was giving away the prizes felt really bad after cing Tarzans face that he offered tarzan a pen too! How generous!

By then, our guruji (fourth one in the cubicle) came down for a break. And when she saw me she was stunned caused it was already 5.15 heheh. And when we showed her the prize we won, she gave us an 'yirk' look.

Well, it was too late for me to take a bus back home. So had to melt 200 bucks from my pocket for a cab! Rs 200 lost and a pen in hand! But did i play for the prize?? Nah!

Oh my saar!!!

Since yesterday there is something technically wrong with me. And the *raja* of this complication is my head ache. Now, I was thinking about the things I detest when I have a headache. Here goes the list.

• I hate combing my hair. Instead, a head massage is the one I would appreciate. :-)
• Reading books – this aggravates my headache.
• Any interesting talks around me will sound stupid. I hate this man! Silence please…
• I hate to hear the telephone ringing when I have a headache… even if it is in the next house! For that matter I hate answering the calls too!!! And today there is a ‘Mahan’ sitting in our next cabin and he is on speaker phone since morning. Crap!
• I hate to eat. It hurts when I chew. :-(
• Switch off the television/radio plz.
  

I cant think of anymore though there are lots…

All the things I like when I have a headache is – nice shoulders to lie on (this gives a feeling that somebody is around). Now the tragic part is that I have the shoulders where I shd lie on but I don’t have it near me right now *sob* *sob*. Then, I require absolute silence around me. Like the one I have now. Nobody in office except the one sitting just behind me. Thank God there is nobody around to make her giggle.. Else her giggles will multiply my headache!!

Time for my cab… Ciaoooo..

Tsunami - Two Years Up

December 26th, 2004 - Unforgetable day in the history of mankind. The feeling is still afresh in my mind. I was at my native for my cousins wedding which was on 25th December 2004. Family members were in high spirit-Enjoying, singing and dancing to glory. The very next day a shocking news reached us; Tsunami had hit most places including Chennai. Well, it was not that we knew the meaning of 'Tsunami'. It was cause we got to know something terrible had happened and there was water all over. The first thing that struck me was my sis, BIL and friends were at chennai. My throat had a lump.

For about a month after the incident, all that was flashed across mails and newspapers were Tsunami related images. It was heartrending. Orphaned kids, deprived humans - the sight was pathetic!

Couple of the many images which shook me is (was) below.

Every normal human being would be shaken by these. My mom was commenting that every odd thing done to the nature was coming back to us. Whatever, damage is done.

After reading this post, take two minutes off your work n pray for those souls who were affected for no reason of theirs. Also, for those souls who continue to exists in this world losing their dear one's.

Well, to end with would want to pen about a 'Tsunami girl' whom i have never met but is known to me. This gal doesnot hail from chennai but was brought to chennai by those rough waves. About a year back she was wedded to a chennai guy who was also looking out for a gal. Mind u this was not out of any sympathy. He was from a well-to-do family. Both guy and gal met, liked eachother and wed with their parents blessings. Now the gal is 7 months pregnant. Now does that sound like a nice and happy family. It 'was' a happy family not 'is'. The guy expired two days back. And the bitter part of the story is, it was a suicide. Reason: Unknown. All i could think was about the gal and the unborn child; the tantrums she would have to bear. God bless her with all strength.

This is just one story. There would be so many stories unsaid and unknown to us. Let's hope and pray that we dont have to face any such shocking and traumatising incidents in 2007 and other years to follow.

Prayers.