Toss a coin to know what you desire!!

Sometimes... only when you loose something, you realize it was the one you wanted the most! When the coin is up in the air, your heart tells you if you want head or tail!!

Analyse....

Sometimes we need to analyse and find out questions for certain episodes of our life, to help find answers [Read 'Clarity'] to it.

Live this moment!

Happening around hint that once we get out of our house, there is no guarantee that we would come back. So live as if it would be your last day on earth.. Love as if you would never have another day to express….. In short, LIVE THIS MOMENT.

Belief..

Do not believe anybody. A person, who says that he/she is ready to die for you, is abandoning you.. cause after his/her absence you would only suffer.

Passing clouds..

This too shall pass.. but THIS can be terrible!!

Sweet as a candy.. and bitter as a wormwood

Beware of people who are always sweet to you. They are sweetly (read slyly) getting THEIR things done.

Shut Up!

At times, this is strange.. I think too much about others and become worried. I have wonderful family.. and have every reason to be happy always! But I spoil my happiness and peace by thinking about things which dont deserve to be thought of. About what people will think, what they will say. Why? When will I stop doing this? Sometimes I just want to tell these people - who try to boss over me - I am what I am. And it is my life. You don’t try to rule over it. But then I end up thinking why should I hurt them. What I fail to realize then is that I am just trying to be what they are to me. I want to come out of this shell and be me. Not caring a bit about anything else other than my loved ones. Yes - To all those so-called-friends, acquaintances, and colleagues. - SHUT UP.
I am rude. So be it.

Our First Letter to Our Jaan :-)

Are you a boy or girl?
You have kept us guessing so long.
We don’t wish to give up.
We are waiting for you,
Waiting for the moment when you will arrive to fill our hearts and hands.
Waiting to hear your first cry.
Waiting for your first touch.
Waiting for your first look.
Waiting for everything related to you.

When I felt you move, I used to get startled.
Now I enjoy you movement.
When I felt pain, I used to worry if you are OK.
Now I know you are definitely doing good.
When I see a baby, I wonder how you will look.
When I see you in scans, I wonder what you are thinking.
I wonder what you are doing.
I wonder if you are comfortable.
I prayer that you should be.

As we wait for you, we are thinking about your arrival.
Thinking about the moment when we will see and hold you.
Thinking about a special name for you.
We are waiting for you.. Our Jaan.

Another one..

This struck me today..

"Sometimes.. u just have to keep quiet, absorb and again keep quiet.."
:-D

Crispy and her names :D

The princess of our house, Crispy (well, my niece is definitely in for a competition) is well-know for her naughtiness, affection, love, possesiveness (to moi), looks (I mean the way she looks at others) and ofcourse her name!!

Crispy, over the years, has lot of names to her credit. She was named 'crispy' cause the day she landed at our place she ate lot of dosas.. that too only crispy one's :D. Apart from crispy, I call her chakara, muttu, sundari, lutapy, cookooo, dungi, button kanni (her eyes are so cute), cat walkie (haha u shd look at the way the lady walks), thirutu muzhi kari (some times she has those i-dint-do-that kindoff looks), thakudu, sukudu.. list goes on and on. And, there are some names which came into existance when my niece was just learning to pronounce crispy. They are fisssss, fisssy, and rispy. Now she has got it right... well almost.

I just love my doggie... and my niece too (just-in-case my niece reads this blog.. after few years!!) :-P

Life is like a roller-coster

Life is like a roller-coaster… You are all excited at the heights.. and even before you realize, you fall.. but at the end of all.. there are two things which makes you live.. experience and hope.

Happiness...

I am noticing that I visit my blog mostly when am down, terrible upset or irritated. Right now, it is a mix of the three.

There are lot of mails, gyans, and messages on how to be happy in life. But I dont see anybody following the path to happiness nor do I follow it. Everything is cyclic. If am happy people around me will be happy. If they are not, that reflects on me.

What makes one unhappy?
faliure?
jealousy?
misunderstanding?
dissatisfaction?
discontent?
disregarding?
ignorance?

The list is on and on. Few of the reasons are due to our beliefs. Rest is cause of the people around us. When I was listing the above mentioned reason, I was wondering what could lead to these. Ideally, an ignorance or disregarding could lead to misunderstanding, or the other yround.

There are people who ignore the cause of unhappiness, and try to be happy. Some people move to their own world when something hurts them. These people either keep to themselves or go around speaking philosophies.

There would also be instances when we will actually be upset but we will not know the reason behind it or we will fool ourself by hiding/not thinking about the reason.

On such instances, I get reminded of an advice from one of my teachers. And I follow her words which actually ends up making me feel better.

If you are upset over something and you dont know the reason, then you should sit quietly and think about all that had happened to you and around you from morning. One by one all the incidents will flash in your mind. And when u come accross the incident that has been troubling you, your heart actually becomes heavy. This is so damm true! Once you get hold of this reason, you should find out what exactly affected your mood - which moment caused you more pain. Once you find that, you can easily find a solution to it. If you are not finding a solution, then it means the problem is linked to someother person. Do not wait for a second. Talk to the concerned person.

It does wonders! I am yet to improve on the second part of the technique i.e., talking to the concerned person. Cause I tend to supress my worries within myself. I have changed quite a lot. I can see I am reaching there!

Happy B'day

My dad's friend is turning 60 today... a poem (lolz i call it so) for him :)

It is your birthday,
Not like any other day..

It is indeed a special day..
Cause it is your 60th birthday..

Don’t let the moment flyaway..
Spend the day like a Sunday..

Hope you put down your ashtray.. :D
Cause it is your birthday..

Let the celebration not have any hindrance..
Celebrate it with all the joyance..

It is your birthday,
Let’s celebrate it our way!!!

Jonny Jonny.. yes papa.. Telling lies... yes papa :D

* The title of this post was changed from 'Lieing to parents' to 'Jonny Jonny.. yes papa.. Telling lies... yes papa :D' cause of two devils. And, this post is not about we lieing to our parents. It is about how our parents can make out every single change in us.

Liging to parents: This is something I just C-A-N-N-O-T do!!! Even if I try to, I end up looking like a jOKEr (I know what you are thinking!! :-P) (Inspite of this I give it a try :D)

One incident is still afresh in my mind. It was about two-and-half years ago. I had to attend one of my colleagues wedding. It was a Christian wedding so it was in the evening. Those days, I had a strict order at home to reach home early and not wander anywhere other than my office. Reason: I was getting married in couple of weeks.

But did that order stop me? NO. I was thinking how bad my friend would feel if I dint attend his wedding. (Ask me if he remembers who all attended his wedding! Ha Ha.) So, we (Me and My friend - partner in *crime*) decided to start early from office and headed to the venue. On way, we had to purchase gift for the couple, find the route and had a fight with the auto guy!! By 7.00 pm we managed to reach the hall. The newly weds were yet to arrive from the church. Meanwhile, we caught up with our colleagues who were around. By then, the couple arrived. Wishes followed. And, I checked the time. It was 7.45!!! We thought to skip the dinner so that we can reach home on time. (and go home and tell our parents we had dinner *another lie*) LOLz.

We ended up having the dinner from the mandap. How can we hurt our friend by not eating at his reception :D? Then, we took an auto back home. Just then my dad called me. I missed a heart beat on seeing call. Thousands of questions were running in my mind – what will he ask? What will I say? How will I manage? Amma is gonna kill me. I recited the lines I had to utter for the question my dad MAY ask, and pressed the green button on my phone. Said ‘yes acha’. (For all the non-malayalee readers (IF ANY haha), Acha means dad in Malayalam). He asked me, ‘Where are you molae?’ (Again, for all the non-malayalee readers, ‘molae’ means ‘dear daughter’). I prompt replied ‘On way home acha..’. Not that I was very good in dialog delivery!! Cause I could clearly guess from my dad’s response that he knew what I was doing.

Not that going to a party without informing parents is a blunder. But, going ANYWHERE without informing your loved one’s is just not the right thing to do!

And, if you are up to ANYTHING without your parents knowledge, just pluck the thought out of you! Cause your parents can notice even a small change in you and can easily guess what you are upto!

Love Kids!!!

There is a lot of change in our lives after my niece walked in. There are few things you have to live with when a little one is around. At their age, innocence is at its peak. Few of the changes which have walked in our life in the name of my lovely niece are as follows.

• Then: Men in our house used to roll around all the news channels without giving us a chance to peep into other channels.
  Now: Neither they watch news channels nor we get to watch our fav channels.
  Reason: Dora, Notty (or Noddy??), various rhymes CD, list goes on and on.
  This scene indeed is a pleasure to watch. There would be three men (my dad, my hubby and my BIL) sit on the sofa (HELPLESS), and in front of them would be my niece keenly watching the animated characters.
• Then: We used to skip a heart beat if water falls over the sofa/bed.
  Now: We laugh over the little one who tries to pull the sofa covers and pees on it. :-D
  Though you get angry over the things these little one does, one smile from her and you are floored! She would change the ‘naksha’ of a well maintained house to a war field.
• Then: ‘I love sleeping’ Who doesn’t love sleeping?
  Now: From sound sleeps at night you will have sleepless nights.
  This as a beautiful change in women. Women, who used to long for sleeps and who used to get pissed off when disturbed from sleep, stay awake with their babies in hand through out the night. Probably, that’s motherhood.
• Then: I had to share chocklates with crispy only.
  Now: Three shares please.
• Then: we used to address achan and ammaa as ‘acha’ and ‘amma’.
  Now: Term them ‘ammacha’ and ‘ammamma’ :-)

List goes on and on….

When the world is fighting for money, fame and recognition, these little one’s will be seriously involved in their works. They would be playing with two glass filled with water, putting their dolls to sleep, trying to open some container and what not.

It is indeed disappointing that these innocent adoring little one’s grow to become what we are today!

Whatever! I just love kids. Love their breath, expression, broken words, naughtiness, smile, laugh…. Gosh.. just love kids!!!

A post for friends ;-P

Well, one of my friends in expecting. We are sending her bangles and a card for her seemandham. To make the card personalized I was asked to write something onthe card. And lo... this is what I came up with.. I dedicate the below to my friends.

The most precious moment has just moments to arrive.
And during this moment hope you are having lots of endive.

It is known to the world that both of you are in the peak of excitement.
Miles away from you, we feel a pinch of that excitement.
And ambi, AP is using lots of ointment ;-P

Miles away from you, we feel your happiness.
And ambi, Pavi has still not changed her blitheness ;-P

Miles away from you, we feel your thrills.
And ambi, Brin is always on her shrills ;-P

Miles away from you, we feel your exhilaration.
And ambi, Subu still retains her gumption ;-P

Miles away from here, when you built a Pueblo,
Ambi, Sugu still continues with the word buffalo…

Miles away from here, when you have trouble to lissome..
Ambi, I am breaking my head on this poem…


Well.. jokes apart.. As Director and Producer (we know who’s who ;-P), you have done your part well. If nominated, you would have won the Oscars without a scar.
Now, it is time for the movie to launch.

All the very best for the function and for the launch!!!

Prove It!!!

My hubby said something very wise today..
If you want God to give you something..
Then, prove that you really deserve it.. be meticulous..
And, you will definitely have it.

The reason for why he said this.. I will surely reveal, my dear blog... but only when I have it..

Cycle..

Past is what I cherish cause it has made me what I am today..
Present is what I love cause it will give me beautiful memories..
Future is what I wait for cause it is gonna give me surprises..

Things what I love is what I cherish and wait for more.. So it is indeed a beautiful cycle..

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I dont know why am blogging today nor do I know why am feeling so stressed out. Probably at the end of this post I will understand my position better.

I was travelling to my friends place yesterday. There were two other women sitting opposite to me. Now, that I am travelling alone and I dont have anything to do (how long will I click snaps!!), I was now and then looking at these two women. They were foriegners and were countinously chatting in they language. I hardly could understand the language but I was able to make out what they were talking from their expressions. One was worried and talking about a third person and other was consoling. Seeing this I entered my own world of thoughts. Why do human beings speak? To express them. Now, what do human beings speak? I was thinking and thinking and all I could conclude was people speak about 'others' most of the time! Yes! I am not talking about men and women seperately cause I know that Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. ;-P. Most of the time people talk about their friends, cousins, relatives, colleagues, people who have hurt them, who haven't hurt them.. blah blah. Well, when I discussed this topic with my hubby, he refused to agree this.. so please note I said 'Most of the time' and not 'Always'.

Now how can this stress out one? I think am thinking too much these days. Thinking about 'Others'. On what they think, on how not to hurt other, on how to keep others happy, and so on. Well, I should definitely change myself. After all, worrying about one and thinking about what they will feel, should be an agenda in our life but not a checklist.

That's it for now.

oh! u cud have got a better one!

There isn't even one person in this world who hasn't got 'oh! u cud have got a better one!'. You can hear this from most of the people around you.

'oh you should have told me..'
'I would have told u something better'
'oh this is just ok'
'oh! u cud have got a better one!'

Be it your college admission, job, dress, shoe, sock, nuts or whatever!! There is always a negative answer to be told. Next time you are told one, tell them you are in love with what you have!!!

My blog is turning out to be a place where I vent out my displeasure.. awww.. I should change myself.. or shouldn't I?